John St. John

י7-35 7-55~ 10.12. 10.30. 11.50. ! 2.20. 1.00. 2.05. 2.55. י4130 5.40- JOHN ST. JOHN my credit that I woke saying my mantra with vigour. ’Tis a bitter chill and damp the mom; yet must I rise and toil at my fair Ritual. Settling down to copy. Have completed my two prescribed pages of illumina— tion. Will g0 and break my fast and do my business. After writing letters went out and had coffee and two brioches. At Louvre looking up some odd points in the lore 01 Khemi [Egypt—En] for my Ritual. I cannot understand it; but I feel faint for lack of food ; I must get back to strict Hatha—Yoga feeding. Half-dozen oysters and an entrecöte aux pommes. Back to work. I am in a very low physical condition ; quite equilibrated, but exhausted. I can hardly walk upright! Lord Adonai, how far I wander from the gardens of Thy beauty, where play the fountains of the Elixir! Wrote two pages; the previous were not really dry; so I must wait a little before illuminating. I will rest—if I can! In the Hanged Man posture. I soon went to sleep and stayed there. It is useless to persist. . . . Yet I persist. I was so shockingly cold that I went to the Dome and had milk, coffee, and sandwich, eaten in Yogin manner. x 65