John St. John

3-45- -3.55 י356 4,10. 4.25. 5.30. 550. JOHN ST. JOHN [The “Akasic Egg” is the sphere of the personality of man. A theosophic term—Eu] N.B.-—Mantras might with advantage be palindromes. I try to construct a magic square from the mantra. No good. But the mantra is going much better, quite mechanically and “without attachment ” (la, without conscious ulterior design. “Art for Art’s sake ” as it were). I drink a “Citron pressé.” Alas! here comes Maryt (with a sad tale of X. It appears that she fainted and spent some hours at the hospital. I should have insisted on her staying with me; the symptoms began immediately on her drinking some coffee. I have noticed with myself, that eating has started the action). An hour of mingled nap and mantra. I now feel alive again. It was very strange how calm and balanced I was: yet now I am again energised; may it be to the point of Enthusiasml People will most assuredly smile at this exalted mystic; his life seems made up of sleep and love-making. Indeed, to-day I have been shockingly under the power of Tamas, the dark sphere. But that is clearly a fatigue-effect from having worked so hard. Oh Lord, how long? The Mantra still ripples on. I am so far from the Path that I have a real good mind to get Maryt to let me perform the Black Mass on her 31 midnight. I would 29