John St. John

JOHN ST. JOHN 6.31. failure than he was ready to admit. But the fact stands ; he cannot concentrate his mind for three seconds together. How utterly hopeless it makes one feel! One thinks one is at least always good for a fair average performance—and one is undeceived. This, by the way, is the supreme use of a record like this. It makes it impossible to cheat oneself. Well, he has got to get up more steam somehow, though the boiler bursts. Perhaps early dinner, with Ritual, may induce that Enthusiastic Energy of which the Gnostics write. This morning the whole Sankhara-dhatu (the tendency of the being John St. John) was operating aright. Now by no effort of will can he flog his tired cattle along the trail. So poor a thing is he that he will even seek an Oracle from the book of Zoroaster. Done. Zoroaster respectfully wishes to point out that " The most mystic of discourses informs us—His wholeness is in the Supra—Mundane Order ; for there a Solar World and Boundless Light subsist, as the Oracles of the Chaldeans affirm.” Not very helpful, is it? As if divination could ever help on such exalted planes ! As if the trumpery elementals that operate these things possessed the Secrets of the Destiny of an Adept, or could help him in his agony! For this reason, divination should be discarded from the start : it is only a “ mere toy, the basis of mercenary fraud ” as Zoroaster more practically assures us. 105