The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

THE TEMPLE OF SOLOMON THE KING Speculative Criticism of the Reason as not only proved and understood, but realized "; and on the 19th: ”The misery of this is simply sickening—I can write no more." There is, however, an entry of this date in his little MS. book 01 vellum: “I realize in myself the perfect impossibility of reason; suffering great misery. 1 am as one who should have plumed himself for years upon the speed and strength of a favourite horse, only to find not only that its speed and strength were illusory, but that it was not a real horse at all, but a clothes-horse. There being no way—no conceivable way—out of this awful trouble gives that hideous despair which is only tolerable because in the past it has ever been the Darkness of the Threshold But this is far worse than ever before; for it is not a despair of the Substance, but of the Form. I wish to go from A to B ; and I am not only a cripple, but there is no such thing as space. I have to keep an appointment at midnight; and not only is my watch stopped, but there is no such thing as time. I wish to make a cannon; and not only have I no cue, but there is no such thing as causality. “This I explain to my wife” (I ! I—Ed.), “and she, ap- parently inspired, says, ‘Shoot it I’ (I suppose she means the reason, but, 01 course, she did not understand a word of what I had been saying. I only told her for the sake 01 formulating my thought clearly in words.) I reply, ‘If I only had a gun.’ This makes me think 01 Siegfried and the Forging of the Sword. Can I heat my broken Meditation-Sword in the furnace of this despair? Is Discipline the Hammer? At present I am more like Mime than Siegfried; a gibbering 11