The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

THE EQUINOX the consciousness behind thoughts. Thus, when the consciousness realizes that ‘I am apart from my thoughts,‘ that thought itself is pictorially shown as a thought." This seems to mean that he again got Atmadarshana; his complaint was the inability to pass beyond. He adds “to this consciousness all thoughts are alike; it would never trouble to command them.” [a' est, it is the Peace of the Universe, the Impersonal Absolute. He was That. Note that he got this without any Ritual to speak of; an enormous advance in power of meditation. Nov. 4. Descent into Hell. In the power of the Dweller —obsession by a devil left by F———- and -?]־ called "?" (This devil is described in Sir Palamede the San/zrm, Sections XXXVI and XXXVIII. It asks “ Is there any Path at all?” and "Are not you a fraud?") Return with great difficulty—awful pangs—«Eli! Elil lama sabachthanil N.B.—I got back to very near Samadhi in the end. (This appears to have been a “ natural ” medi- tation arising out of the conversation of F—— the Buzite and -?]־the Shuhite l) ,, 14. Again got into the Samadhi-proximity-state; as it were, without trouble. (Now follows a period of two more months of ill-health of the severest kind, and apparently