The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

A MASTER OF THE TEMPLE very hard up. The power to retreat into that part of me which is Peace, free from all strife, remains with me. To be an onlooker at my thoughts and actions and remain the while in perfect rest—very seldom disturbed by outside influences— this is indeed something. Another important thing I would mention. I have an intense longing for more Love, a sort of unsatisfied craving to embrace people, particularly women, and sometimes natural things (this was not meant for sar- casm) such as the earth, the grass, etc. I do not think I expect and ask the love of others so much as I feel the need of entire freedom to love without barrier or restraint; but always there seems a something holding me back, invisible, formless, but of great strength, so that I yearn and open my arms (as it were) but am not satisfied; and so I turn and direct it towards that formless vision of Adonai within. Maybe, some day a spark will fire it and it will break loose; & then? (This sounds very good indeed. O.M.) Aug. 27. The most perfect peace I have experienced for a long time. Sep. 1. This is the last day of the six months. Nov. 9. Nearly two months since I made an entry. Will write down a few of the events that I remember during that time. Have done some slight morning and evening practice almost every day. Have occupied a fair amount of time in giving what instructions I can on occult matters to those who have requested in- formation. S. and L. have become sufficiently interested to apply for Studentship, and W. has at last written and asked re Probationership. Have heard finally from Fra P.A. and answered his letter. Nov. 26, 11.40 to 11.55 P.M. Meditation on Love. Commenced with sending Love to the six directions of space (See Training of the Mind. Eq. 5). Became identi- fied with Love to the exclusion of all other ideas. It is verily a dew which dis- solves thought. (Dangerous, though, for a beginner. Often means little more than the maudlin benevolence of one who has dined too well. Fill yourself with Love, and it will flow out of its own accord. O.M.) Nov. 27. Letter from Chancellor of A.A. Was glad to receive this, as it cleared up a point that had long troubled me. Note: This was the point re Astral journeys, mentioned before. (This gave Fra. V.I.O. fresh confidence, and we find records of experiments at once. Ed.) Nov. 27, 11.6 to 11.28 P. M. Astral Journey. Rising on the Planes. Will try and recount this experience in detail as it was somewhat different from any 163