A MASTER OF THE TEMPLE
I consider the above very bad; but the explanation is that this particular hour
was a great ‘rush’ as I had to call at my brother’s Office, go home for lunch, do
some shopping for lunch, and back again to eat same, also get shaved, in one
hour. I evidently got flurried and lost control a bit. (Note the time when talking
to my brother is doubtful, but have included it.) I think I should here note that
on Saturday evening, Sunday and Monday I was quite aware of my task practi-
cally all the time; even when I made mistakes, they were in almost every case
caused through trying too hard. Probably, having got over a difficult bit of con-
versation successfully, I was seduced into the error. Tuesday and to-day have
been rather different. I have lapsed a little in vigilance, but attained a certain sub-
conscious wariness. This makes conversation easier, but is not established enough
to make me free from errors. In fact I am not sure if I am not getting more
careless.
. at 5.20 P.M. office.
. at 8.30 P.M. to wife.
. at 10 P.M. Singing.
. 10,50. talking to wife.
Total for day, 9.
HHH
Note. I felt terribly restless all the evening, and had an intense desire to talk
freely. Went to a Smoking Concert at 8.45, but left again at 10.5, as I could
not stand it any longer. I wanted to sing very much, and in fact did join in one
song and made slip noted above. I find it very difficult to leave out a word
throughout a song, even if singing with others.
Thursday, Jan. 12, 7.35 P.M.
Have felt much better to-day and had much more control so far. At 8.58 A.M.
I recorded one failure, but this time not spoken audibly; the meaning however
was in mind, so I count it. I was repeating the time after being told it by a
friend, viz., one and a half minutes to nine. Again at 6.35 P.M. once, but also
inaudible.
I completed the day successfully with a total of 2 (inaudible).
Friday, Jan. 13, 6.20 P.M.
. during morning at office.
. at 2.35 P.M. all inaudible.
. at 4.30 P.M.
. at 6.10 P.M. Aloud.
HHH
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